Its like pulling yourself up out of the mud.
The sludge of negative thoughts and self-criticism. The draining fight against fear of failure and overcoming challenging events…
I started this piece months ago and found it today again.
What I am grateful to say is that I’ve done some pulling these past few months.
Gone is the running away from my thoughts. I have learnt that I can come to a stand-still, face them, page through them to see which ones are valid and which ones I should ignore. Some fears exist because of bad past experiences, but pushing THROUGH the thought shows me that there is more light than darkness on the other side. Light in terms of possibilities instead of only the option of failure. The fact that failure doesn’t mean the end…its just part of a process. Pushing through a negative thought and fear, I realise that I am capable to withstand a challenge and that I have more strength than I thought I did.
Why do I write this?
Because, if I can see progress in how I think about life and challenges I want to face and dreams I want to chase, then maybe someone else can too. And sometimes we need confirmation that we can.
Feeling utterly abandoned and frustrated with an unknown future and feelings of inadequacies, I stumble across a hero’s online video, mentioning that miracles and the impossible is where God prefers to work.
If she could survive and stand with a smile on her face, then so can I.
But I have started breaking through the thoughts holding me back…and thoughts are sometimes stronger than the actual situations.
So let’s keep on going. Mud will not keep me back.