So, I got bad news yesterday.
It’s not a life or death situation, but close enough. It’s dire enough to leave me confused, disappointed, unsure.
Not unsure of Him – More than ever, I know He’s there, because He showed me His presence this past six months. So powerfully that I can’t lie to myself and say He hasn’t got this. He’s got this. Me. Us
But I’m sore. And alone because only I know how I deal with this. Others go through similar trials and survive. I will too. But my struggle will be unique based on my personality, values and experiences.
So I want to run to the place I always went to: My best friend. Only…I lost that friend this past year as well (not to death, only to choices), so that’s not an option. But I want to pick up the phone and find comfort and advice where I used to.
But God’s not letting me. And I realise: He has a different plan.
What He has in store for me is that He’s sending two of the best people I know into my life this week. He knew this was coming and two sources of infinite wisdom, grace, love and Godly insight…they’re on their way.
They’re not my habitual go-to cry buddies. But I know they are fully geared for this job of helping me find whatever I need to get through this:
- To see His perspective
- Determine what I’m supposed to pray (as I’m so confused about His will for this situation)
- To find comfort in a heavenly manner
- To cry and use the Godly way of dealing with hurt and sadness
The person I wish was here may never be there for me again. But He knows what I need to work through this trial. And He already planned to send them to my city this week, even though they live far far away. He scheduled them into my calendar even before yesterday happened.
That’s how practical, caring and in control my God is.
So, thank You. For once again making plans I didn’t even knew were necessary.
You always provide…not in what I WISH I can get…but by giving what I really NEED.