Its all about how we see ourselves…that’s how we ascertain what we (think we) can accomplish…or survive.
A beautiful white vase standing on a table…someone walks by…purely by accident the table is bumped and the vase topples over.
Someone’s intention? No
Vase broken? YES
In my head…I was this vase. Through life and people’s actions and choices, I always thought I would be pushed over…and break. It is why I live with fear. It is why I miss (missed) out on life.
Will I get the answer wrong of the maths equation in front of everyone in class and never be able to show my face again at school?
Will I blunder in putting the presentation together and never be able to work again?
Will I be flustered when asked something in a meeting and die of embarassment of conflict?
Will I be lost-never-to-fully-function-again if a relationship doesn’t work out?
In all of the above…I have learnt so far…that the answer is NO.
The vase is never irreparably damaged…
No, sorry, I got that wrong again.
Its not that the vase doesn’t break…it is that I’ve discovered that I am not a ceramic vase.
Made of some other substance that God has woven into my being, I am able to bounce back, think, survive, talk, function…HANDLE the situations that come my way.
Plastic (not as romantic or pretty hey…)
Iron (bit harsh for a girl I guess)
Can we settle on Copper then? Yes
Fulfilling the same Purpose as Ceramics, a Copper Vase will still hold your flowers…but she certainly looks and survives differently. She may get a dent…a scratch…but destroyed beyond repair? No.
That was the other thing…the idea of fulfilling a purpose. In seeing myself as so breakable, there were so many things I never even tried for fear of being bumped over…and there…I lost out on so many experiences.
But put this copper vase on any mantle piece or table now, cause she wants the view and its okay if something unplanned happens (by life’s accident or purpose)
This is not being cocky…this is not being naive about how harsh life can be.
This is just realising that I was crafted in a stronger fashion than I once thought and in realising this, some fears disappear…resulting in so much more being attempted…
As His ambassadors, so much can be done…if I put myself out there to try. I won’t break…He made me this way…and He made me well. (and let’s not even go into the fact that He is always present…always helping…always supplying His power, nevermind my own…story for another day)
I have given you authority…over the power of the enemy…nothing shall hurt you