Peace, Child

Peace, Child

Have you ever felt so consumed as I do, by thoughts storming your way? Is it fatique that sometimes fuels this and gives it momentum, resulting in complete noise in your head? Or is it the enemy? An enemy that knows it’s almost impossible to find truth in those moments when your mind is inundated with words…questions…issues you thought you’ve dealt with by now.

Am I a good (enough) mom?

Did I make the right life choices?

When last did I even make a smart decision?

Why do you overeat? Wow – you’ve really gotten fat!

Am I a good wife?

How would my partner rate our marriage? Am I doing okay at being his partner?

Am I blocking God’s blessing on my life?

I should really learn to chill, right? (yeah, let’s make ‘relax’ yet another task!)

Did I spend wisely this month? Do I really love the latest home decor feature, or did I just waste our money?

How can I make my child happier? Why can’t I just be in the moment when she’s with me? I’m so failing at being a mom!

Lord, are You mad at me?

Heart palpitations, while you’re trying to just go about your routine, because your mind simply won’t let go!

It’s a barrage some days!

AND! Even though I’ve learnt MANY times that talking to God through journalling is the ideal tool, I often procrastinate and take my time before implementing it. Writing down my conversations with God, helps me (…you may have other methods…) shift these thoughts out of view, making them less consuming, and help my see His perspective…But, unfortunately, for hours or even days, I will try and regain control by:

  • ‘thinking’ my way out of it.
  • looking for ways to justify my decisions
  • having half-discussions with God in the car while driving, but never really getting to His truths, because something WILL distract me

And then…often in utter desperation to not have yet another day of this senseless cycle…I would stop…

STOP binging series

STOP doom-scrolling

STOP finding ways to keep busy

START facing the truth…by taking up my pen.

Today it only took God 2 pages in my diary to help me get to the truth I’ve been looking for.

Lord, what do you say? About all of this?

Peace, child.

And instantly, I can breathe normally again. My mind goes quiet.

This time, peace came, not from knowledge or answers or facts, but from His words, His truth, breaking down the wall of lies (unnecessary questions and doubt) that had formed in my mind. If He simply wants me to have peace, apparently that is more important now, than everything I’ve been overthinking and wanting ‘plans of improvement’ for.

Peace

I’m stopping my mind from going anywhere else. No trying to build on those two words…or debate it while making dinner or planning activities with my toddler. He didn’t give me a myriad of answers…some questions didn’t warrant answers anyway…I KNOW the answers…I just didn’t FEEL them for a few days.

He simply wants peace for me.

I’ll take it.

Is 26:3 You will keep in perfect peace those whose minds are steadfast, because they trust in you.

2 Cor 10:5 We demolish arguments and every pretension that sets itself up against the knowledge of God, and we take captive every thought to make it obedient to Christ.

May you find peace…in life…in your mind…daily.

Sometimes we have to do a little work along the way. Take that pen and paper (or whatever tool works for you). MAKE the time to talk to Him instead of just talking to yourself. ALWAYS, He will be there, ready with what you need.

Peace, child.

Senekal – My 5 Thoughts – 5 Things I Hope we can Remember

Senekal – My 5 Thoughts – 5 Things I Hope we can Remember

I want to start off by saying that I don’t think I know everything on this topic. I don’t say that because I doubt myself, but because I’ve seen this week how so many leaders and people have shared opinions and for many of us it’s difficult. It’s difficult to make statements or give direction when the waters are murky. It’s difficult to show vulnerabilities. It’s difficult when what’s happening goes against everything you believe. It’s difficult when you need to have – and use – faith when the deck seems stacked against you…and continues to deteriorate it seems.

Lord, I know You’re in this and with us God, but I don’t always know from the get-go how You want us to act. It’s a learning game.

So, here I am just sharing what has been in my thoughts.

Senekal

It’s horrid what happened to Brendin Horner. I think of him and I wish I can tell him that his life meant so much. That his death sparked something that can be truly profound in our country. But I wish it never happened.

What happened to Brendin pushed many of us into action and I think that’s a good thing. Within certain guidelines. So, I’m just sharing 5 things I hope we can all remember while this event in our country’s history plays out.

My 5 Thoughts

It Can Never be About Race

While we’re fighting for an end to the injustice of white farmers being killed, I do pray that this will not result in an overwhelming hate between different races. Not again. Our country has come too far.

It’s clear that there’s no need for interracial hate, since so many different races are standing up for this one cause. May we remember how we’ve learnt from eachother, built together and partnered over the past 20 years. While we fight for the lives of a specific group of people, may we not fall into the trap of becoming prejudiced against eachother ever again.

2. Fighting for Justice, not Taking Revenge

I know there are many who may say that those against the farm murders shouldn’t gather. But I can’t tell them they’re wrong for taking a stand for justice – against injustice.

Someone once told me that being a peacemaker – peace being one of the Fruits of the Spirit – doesn’t necesarilly mean to never ‘fight’. A peacemaker may have to stand up for what is right in order that everyone in the situation can experience peace going forward.

In this light, coming together and showing our president that we – not white, black or coloured, but EVERYONE – wants to put a stop to injustice, can be a good thing?

I do believe revenge is best left in His hands and so I pray that each gathering – so many happening across our country – will take place in an orderly, peaceful manner.

3. Pray – Always

I am guilty of not praying enough. I don’t pray enough for my family, my country or prayer requests sent by friends. But I have seen the power of prayer:

  • I have seen people heal – physically and emotionally.
  • I have seen answers come on difficult questions.
  • I have found direction in prayer.
  • I have seen people change.

I know that I’m supposed to pray for this situation and I hope many of us won’t think it’s for nothing. We do have a responsibility to take up authority on earth. God tells us to rule. For me that means praying His peace, love, guidance and so much more into as many situations as we can.

  • I pray for each leader sharing their thoughts on social media – that it will be words of wisdom.
  • I pray for protection for everyone concerned. I know it can seem disheartening after so many farmers have been hurt or killed. But that doesn’t mean this is a lost cause.
  • I pray that judges will be fair.
  • I pray for changed hearts of people causing chaos in this world.

4. Don’t Forget the Past

There is no question that over the past few years there has been a lot of healing in our country. Movements like #ImStaying and the way people rallied to help eachother during the pandemic have proven our TRUE South African characteristics:

  • we care
  • we share
  • we love
  • we appreciate eachother

That stays the same even if some people prefer to pick the alternative.

I pray that we won’t forget this, while we’re in this specific chapter of our country’s history.

5. Think About who You are Following

Someone said last week that we need proper leaders. We were talking about the country as a whole because face it, we’ve lost faith in most of them.

I do pray for excellent leaders to stand up. That’s not a responsibility I have the courage for, apart from occasionally sharing my thoughts online. But I do have the responsiblity to consider who I will follow, whose words I will take to heart and whose messages I will share.

So, which celebrities do you listen to? Which videos are you sharing?

Who you listen to determines whether you get the truth about a situation. The leaders you follow determine the impact you make on those around you, because their opinions WILL affect you. And since fake news is so real in our world, everything we read requires some extra research. For example, determine whether it’s fueled by hate and revenge, or the fight for justice.

So, just think twice what your Facebook share will do. Will it get us closer to a solution or instigate hate?

Once again, I believe we can stand up for what’s right. But may we never end up with hate trumping our country’s inherent love.

These are my thoughts.

Please take care out there everyone.

Ps 133:1

How good and pleasant it is when brothers live together in unity!