It’s difficult to find yourself…your purpose…your niche where you know you’ll flourish. Because there are so many options. And you see others and watch others and think…’oh, that’s how I’m supposed to do it’.

But it’s not.

Difficult to Find Your Spot

So many other people’s paradise have been my downfall. Their ideal soil was where I perished instead of grew.

And all the while I’m wasting precious time I could have simply invested in finding my spot. My corner – my niche. My lane to run in.

I know all the jargon. I’ve read all the books.

But still, it’s difficult.

• I want to be a mother as good as that friend.
• I want to travel the world like that one.
• I want to have the work title that other lady has.

Sound familiar?

But all the while I have a different purpose!

What I Know

And I know that I have that purpose because wherever I go You, Lord, send people who need me…who I connect with…with whom I grow…that teach me. And that’s valuable. You are on Your way with me.

I’m not off track, because continuously I see how You’re actively involved in where I’m going. And today I heard again how all You really care about is pulling us closer to You. That’s where You’re going with us.

But still I glance to someone else’s lane sometimes.

It’s difficult…to keep eyes front…to keep ears to Your voice (instead of people’s opinions).

It’s difficult.

Difficult to Grasp Your Patience

In all of this, You have always been so kind.

Never have You given up, trying to direct me on my path.

Never have You stopped sending people my way to provide guidance when I need it.

Never have You not spoken in some or other manner – even if it’s after a long time of me trying to figure out stuff on my own before asking for Your input.

Always, You are right there. Next to me. Patiently waiting for me to take the next step forward.

Patiently helping me live out the purpose of getting to know You more.